Being a lone wolf

I have a lone wolf side in me... that makes me do stuff on my own...without asking for help.

Probably this is how I always been...but now I start realising what I have become...and there is a scientific reason behind it...apparently.

At the company I worked for during the past 11+ years I got several individual assignments...and I was really grateful for them...and until we switched to scrum, I was formally not part of any team...I was the framework team...alone.

Needless to say I like working alone...that's when I am in the zone...I can focus on the work...the challenge and get things done...quickly.

Working in a team is a different kind of beast...and I can argue that some things are harder to be done in a team than as a lone wolf... let me rephrase: some things are more efficient while done alone than in a team. This is what I learned in the past years. In order to have something done in a team, there is communication to be done...and if you have a complex idea you have to communicate it to others...and by the time they understand it...many long meetings will pass...and no real progress.

I am a software craftsman...I would say an efficient one... and some things do not appeal to me...like doing long hours of explanations to a team...not interested at all in my topic...just present because they need to...just so that you can feel that you made something in a team...In that time I would probably done it already...on my own...in my cave.

I enjoy working in a team if I am not leading...if there is someone else who takes the responsibilities of architecting and leading ... and I can fill in my work  as a black box... I'll do my share...my chores...and help others while doing so...I am a good team member....asking the appropriate questions...but after so many years in leading...you cannot go back...they expect you to lead....you are trapped.


I think I could go back to that obedient mode...no more "lone wolf"-ing ...just get back in line...while I gather my strengths... and learn a few new crafts... and I find the things I lost in the past years...